i often get people who have used blender before telling me how to use it, how to make a pbr texture, how to navigate it

i hate when men watch me using my laptop idk why, because i suddenly feel like i am using it very inefficiently

i know sometimes, information is shared in kind, its nice to share ideas, and exciting to see somebody using a software you know things about

but sometimes i feel like people genuinely think i dont know anything

and usually this is in response to anything, even things i already know and probably dont want to use. like guys do you not think i would google it if i wanted to do it?

i am not aiming for photorealism ! photorealism is boring , i want to make my own visual language

once, a random guy i dont know saw me on blender. i got talking to him and he told me : yeah, its actually super easy to animate with keyframes. i can show you if you like?

and as i write this, i'm like maybe its my fault people think i'm dumb, because i actually said : oh my god ! oh my god ! WOW thanks, cool , yeah i will defintiely be using that

and i literally know how to do it. this was one of the first things i learnt, why did i say that

i think there is something imposter syndromy about all of this because of the fact that everything i do is self taught from youtube

if i want know how to do something i google it and follow a tutorial and have fun la la la listening to music and before i know it ive copied someones tutorial and i know how to do it

and even when i apply these techniques to my own things i feel like im copying or plagiarizing somehow, even though that doesnt really make sense

it just doesnt feel real. and thats because its not. so is it a real skill? or is it just as useful as whistling, or clicking my fingers, probablty. i wonder what cognitive skills i am learning from using this software or wether i am actually taking them away